The
two HPANWO Radio live programmes, The HPANWO Show and The Gas Spanner, include
a livechat service to allow listeners to talk to myself and each other during
the broadcasts. This service is twofold. There is a public chatbox powered by
Tlk.io, see: https://tlk.io/hpanwo#_=_. This is free
for anybody to join and say whatever they like. There is no membership system;
you just put a name in the box and start typing. This system is ideal for new
people who have just discovered HPANWO Radio and do not know anybody else in
its community; also for people who might want to give information or ask
questions anonymously, which might be appropriate in some circumstances. The
obvious problem is that this system can be abused by trolls and I will always
remove any material that is openly destructive and hateful. Sometimes angry arguments
can break out between members, and this is tricky because a lack of membership
means there is no block function; but I believe it is not my place to intervene
if both parties are being equally aggressive. During last night's live HPANWO
Show a person joined the livechat calling themselves "L Monster" and
several other usernames as they came and went from the box during the evening.
This person quickly identified herself as a former friend of mine with whom I
had fallen out several years ago. She then went on to interact in a friendly
manner with some of the other posters. I myself only spoke with her briefly
when she asked if I minded if she used the chatbox. I replied in the
affirmative and explained the policy of the Tlk.io chat that I've outlined
above. However, I personally felt very uncomfortable with her presence there
and so did several other members. A long time ago somebody advized me in
private to delete "L Monster's" posts as soon as she makes them. This
is tempting, but in my view it would definitely cross over the line into
censorship, and I will never resort to that. I don't believe I have the right to
ban somebody from using the chatbox just because I personally dislike them. Apart
from answering "L Monster's" housekeeping questions I decided the
best defence was to ignore her; and I offer this advice to any other members
who object to the presence of somebody they don't personally like in the
livechat. There is another another solution. As I've said above there are two tiers to the
HPANWO Radio livechat; the other is our Discord server, see: https://discord.com/channels/887345047534710795/1308161974302937139.
This is a completely private server that is strictly limited to my invitations
only and cannot even be seen by non-members. I never make the offer to somebody
to join unless I know exactly who they are. Once in the server, members can
block people they don't personally get on with. For this reason I ask every
regular HPANWO Radio listener who has been a member of our community for a long
time and is acquainted with me personally, please to join the HPANWO Radio
Discord. That way we all have a place we can gather if the public livechat
becomes unbearable. Thank you.
WOW Ben! OK, so this is Lisa from Cry Freedom Radio and I need to say something on this!
ReplyDeleteBen and I were friends for well over a decade and worked together on Critical Mass Radio back in 2012 and also when we both had our own platforms, we chatted together often on both our shows and never fell out about anything...
Roll on to 2020 when everything changed and Ben and I had started to disagree on a few things, not important what, but we were still friends. As things got worse during these hard years and what was happening in schools become more and more in our faces regarding the sick evil grooming and programming, I made a suggestion one evening in his chat, when we were still friends, that perhaps instead of doing every programme mostly at this time about his UFO stuff, perhaps given his proud welsh background, it would be really good to get some of the Public Child Protection Wales people on, I was doing this at the time but was not reaching as many people, so I thought it might be good for Ben to do this on his wider platform... He did not take it well and told me not to tell him what to do... OK, perhaps I should have just kept quiet but we were all going through it at these times and trying to do whatever we could to get the truths out there and I just felt this took priority over UFO's at that time... Anyway I left the chat soon after that remark but decided a few minutes later to grow up and return and I was in fact going to apologise for speaking out... When I got back in there I found all these people I had known for years were ALL attacking me with each other and saying unpleasant things so I did, at that point, admittedly 'see my arse', say a few things in the heat of that moment then left again and blocked Ben on my FB account. Soon after when I had cooled down I did apologise to Ben, at least 3 times, given we'd been friends for a long time with no problems and he once called me the 'yin to his yang'. I get it, I attacked his ego and he didn't like it, so I said sorry, but it seems this was never good enough and I do know that a certain lady who lives in Wales and who is now the 'queen bee' in Ben's chatroom hates me and has obviously helped to turn Ben completely against me.
Last Thursday I did enter the chatroom because I'd been putting some of my old BACK TO BASICS series onto my radio station including Ben doing the commentaries at the start and end and I felt sad about what had happened, so I went in, in good faith and heart, to try to just build some bridges but it became apparent Ben did not want me there and this welsh lady was telling me how angry she was about me being there, just for the record, when I first entered the chat I called myself the 'L monster' because this is how this welsh lady and another ex lady friend who used to like me but now hates me also it seems, referred to me, when I was listening one night, because I do still pop in from time to time to hear the updates only out of heart, never anything negative, but of course I was very upset to see myself referred to the 'L monster' and felt after just one incident in the heat of a moment, for which I apologised many times, this was very harsh and unfair!
It is what it is and I will never go there again or let my heart dictate, we leave things behind for reasons, all of us, because we all move in different directions, I respect this and see there is not point ever going backwards.
I am sorry I made you feel uncomfortable Ben, never my intention, it was for old time's sake only but the welsh lady well and truly despises me, this is evident, so I'll leave it there, I wonder if you will leave this comment here Ben, doesn't really matter, I am merely giving my side of it all and will now finally move on.
I wish you all only the best and again, sorry if I caused you discomfort, I felt it back too, if it means anything, farewell old friend xx